My Path To Spirituality

I am a Christian, in that I am a Christ follower. I am also a human being who at times struggles with my faith and religion, therefore I have been trying to become closer to God and trying to strengthen my faith by attending church regularly and by trying to be a better person by following the teachings of Christ.

It is not an easy thing for me to do in that I often times question why bad things happen to good people and why do horrible events happen to those who are innocent. It is hard for me at times to just sit back and believe that this is the path God has chosen and that God's reasons for these things to happen are planned and necessary for his master plan to be carried out. What is the master plan?

I think to myself that it's easier to focus on the negative since negativity is always around us. People hate so many things and dislike many others. Perhaps it is the people that we hang out with that generate this kind of thinking? Maybe it's the media such as the daily news that focuses on the negative news items. It could be that I am so negative at times that I only think that the evening news is negative? What ever the reasons might be, I now try harder to be a more up beat and positive person. By changing my attitude over this past year or so, I have noticed that there are good things in life and that there are good people out there. I am not saying that I trust everyone so easily, I am just saying that I can now see some good in people where as before I only saw the negative in people.

This brings me today. Today I am sitting here thinking about how good life is for me right now. I never thought I would be where I am today. Sure I have had some unfortunate events happen but I have also had many positive things happen during my life too. I find that despite feeling like I am not where I should be in life, I have a feeling that I am right where I need to be. Why? Because it comes back to God's plan for me.

I cannot see the future, nor should I fear it. What will happen will happen and I just have to embrace the life that I have. I try to be a better person everyday that I am here on this Earth.

I find that at times I compare myself to those around me but then I have to remember that it's not about comparing myself to others all the time. I need to be happy with myself and where I am in life. Everyone has a plan for themselves, even if at times we might seem lost. Take it from me, I spend many years trying to get my life together and to a point where I wouldn't feel like I had nothing when compared to others. Again, don't compare yourself to others but you can use them as either a motivator to become better or dismiss them completely. Either way, I find that I should not look at others and compare myself to others since it only seems to bring unhappiness and discontent.